confused and seething

Wow... This is probably not a good night to be posting in public. I'm in a fowl mood tonight. I think I let some old demons back into my house and they're tearing the place up and they won't leave. What a strange mix of confused, sad, furious, hopelessness... and they're all turned up to 11 tonight.

I guess I don't want to get into specifics of why just here... I'd probably regret that tomorrow. But man, I've been pacing around like a caged animal tonight. Even the usually calming effect of installing hardware and software onto a pair of old computers tonight has done nothing to dull the emotions.

I feel like if I go to bed I'll just toss and turn all night and get more frustrated. I feel like if I stay up I'll continue to whip myself up into a dervish-like frenzy. I can feel the back of my neck tightening up already.

Wow... okay writing isn't helping. I'm going to try something else.